Lonely...

Its been too long...way to long.

Whats 'lonely'? How do i describe 'lonely'? Base word - alone. The noun, loneliness. Is lonely an adjective or an adverb? Its a strange feeling.. its only felt when I am alone? Not necessarily.. I can feel lonely when I'm right smack in a middle of a kenduri..?
I'm in my empty house, alone. But I dont feel lonely.. I was walking in a crowded mall a few days ago, yet I felt so lonely... I was talking with my sister on the phone, deep inside I felt so lonely. I was having coffee with friends, laughing at their jokes, then, I felt that zzinngg in my ear and I felt so so lonely..
Is it love? I have so much love around me. Puzi love me like crazy and I'm crazy mad about him. Nadeem, the light of my life- I have squeezed all my love for him and will do so till end of time..I've never ever felt unloved.

Yet, I feel so lonely..that deep hollow excruciating emptiness...but only when I am not alone, only when I have people around me. I feel lonely when I'm not understood. I feel lonely when I'm miss-understood. I feel lonely when I think I did good but not being seen doing good. I'm not seeking appreciation nor am I seeking fame. I only want to be acknowledged! Until then, I feel lonely...