Audit...

Hai, pejam celik, pejam celik...dah pun masuk bulan Jun. Its the mid of year 2011. Need to audit all of my accounts. Among which are : Body mass, weight,volume and surface area, hati dan perasaan, amalan dunia dan akhirat and maybank savings and current accounts, tabung haji, bank rakyat(insyaAllah), ASB, EPF,insurances...

Physically, its very obvious.. Over the years I've grown both ends and significantly sideways. I am standing tall, all the 5ft 1in or 153cm of me..it does not matter when i always have to stand on my toes when theres something happening at the front of a crowd but somehow i will always get to nudge my way through to the front, heart always melt for little people. As for weight, lately I have not crossed the 60kg limit no matter how much I eat..trying very hard but I must say my nasi lemak diet works wonders. Have nasi lemak in the mornings would mean a late lunch and most definitely either a very light or only fruits and coffee for dinner. Very healthy! My interpretation of body volume is all the water.. is it only me or is everybody drinking alot these days. Lets blame the global warming and of course my menopausal hot flushes..Doctors say that we need 8 glasses of water a day..the question is how big is the glass. The more we drink the more we waste water - the toilet flush, but still healthy, water is cheap in Selangor. Surface area, yes yes, need that facial and body scrub and lulur..skin hangus from New york heat wave and dried up from Amsterdam chills.Must make time!

Amalan dunia dan akhirat and bank accounts. Theres never a day that I have not bersyukur that my monetary accounts have balances that I can smile and feel good while I am maintaining my housewife, not working individual.Actually that is not quite true. I am a working wife, usually much2 more than a first class 'P'...(lets talk about that another day).. As for our akhirat account, o dear...I remember an ustaz on TV said that if every ibadah that we do, Allah banks in money or saham in our account, people would camped out outside Gods bank. The problem is saham akhirat ni tak nampak, the sg salsabila, the istana di syurga tak ada website..no tripadvisor reviews. I can easily and confidently say I am so not ready to leave this world as far as my amalan and bekalan is concerned. Need a lot of work. Theres so many franchises of berbuat baik and beramal. Need to invest in all..

Hati dan perasaan - being away from Nadeem is so not good, hati pedih.I questioned my feelings when I am happy Nadeem is at the madrasah, when I should still be missing him. I suppose I do miss him tak terkata but I know he is on the right path, a journey to become a hafiz,to be in a place Allah menjanjikan syurga.I can only doa his journey a pleasant, safe and made easy.
The ride on the horse drawn carriage with Puzi in central park at dusk is exquisitely beautiful. We were holding hands and I was for the hour in his arms, chanting tasbih,tahmid and takbir for that magical moment. I am blessed.
My brothers stroke, my sisters wrist op and my eldest'son' ACL was very worrying. but alhamdulillah they are all on the way to recovery.

Accounts audited..well, some misc stuff can just be swept under the carpets till maybe end of the year. Hutang2 tak ada, projects : mega and small businesses in the planning. Ok, lets take a break, tall glass of sarsaparilla...mm

New Year 2011

Wow.. my first posting this new year! Its actually already mid February.
Why, you might ask.. honestly its such a silly excuse. I forgot my password to enter my own blog...
Got it right tonight.. to be honest, changed my password. Thats it.. New Year, new password. Thats it then...will start writing tomorrow.

Lonely...

Its been too long...way to long.

Whats 'lonely'? How do i describe 'lonely'? Base word - alone. The noun, loneliness. Is lonely an adjective or an adverb? Its a strange feeling.. its only felt when I am alone? Not necessarily.. I can feel lonely when I'm right smack in a middle of a kenduri..?
I'm in my empty house, alone. But I dont feel lonely.. I was walking in a crowded mall a few days ago, yet I felt so lonely... I was talking with my sister on the phone, deep inside I felt so lonely. I was having coffee with friends, laughing at their jokes, then, I felt that zzinngg in my ear and I felt so so lonely..
Is it love? I have so much love around me. Puzi love me like crazy and I'm crazy mad about him. Nadeem, the light of my life- I have squeezed all my love for him and will do so till end of time..I've never ever felt unloved.

Yet, I feel so lonely..that deep hollow excruciating emptiness...but only when I am not alone, only when I have people around me. I feel lonely when I'm not understood. I feel lonely when I'm miss-understood. I feel lonely when I think I did good but not being seen doing good. I'm not seeking appreciation nor am I seeking fame. I only want to be acknowledged! Until then, I feel lonely...

Nak buka apa-ramadhan9

Alhamdulillah.. its already over a week of ramadhan. How time jets away...

It has been raining, in fact we're getting thunder storms almost every evening. Its truly a blessing to cool down our extra warm bodies in Ramadhan. I dont actually mind without astro services..thats a blessing, too! Many2 other things to do, reading the quran, reading islamic books and journals, or even just looking out of the window..Allahuakbar, what can be greater than the maker of rain, the unimaginable volume of water from the sky, the bright blinding lightning, the roar of thunder shaking to your inner core...

But my heart goes out to the traders at Bazaar ramadhan..Do they make less on rainy days? Do we buy less in rainy days?Mm.. i guess not. There some who have to brave the storm, they need the food for iftar..I suppose its more wet, cold and slow way to make money. The rezeki will still be rezeki, bestowed by the maker of the storm, no more, no less!

Lets see, had a sumptious berbuka yesterday, simple but the croissant sandwich was awesome, my roast chicken was tender and moist and ..mm my garlic bread was a hit, hot from the oven. Even the bread pudding was cleand off the plate without a tiny crumb...thanks papa for all the piji-pujian.

Whats cooking today?

Berbuka
Tortilla chips with salsa dip
Garlic bread (a repeat bcos it was sooo good yesterday)
Spaghetti bolognaise
Creamy corn pudding


Sahur
Nasi goreng with telur mata kerbau
Keropok

Selamat berbuka!

Nak buka apa-ramadhan8

Mm..tepuk dada tanya selera. What do I feel like eating? lets try something different, lets go western..

Berbuka
Mushroom soup w slices of garlic bread
Chicken mayo croissant (for me)
Roast chicken with herb potatoes
Bread pudding


Sahur
Nasi putih
Ayam goreng
Sambal ikan bilis dan kentang
Sayur campur

Selamat berpuasa!

Nak buka apa-ramadhan7

Oops..busy busy day..

Berbuka
Karipap daging
Roti boom
Yee Mee in mushroom and crabmeat soup
Bubur keladi

Sahur
Nasi putih
Daging masak kicap
Ikan goreng cicah budu
Sayur sawi tumis


Selamat berbuka!

Nak buka apa- Ramadhan6

eehh...terlepas 1 hari ramadhan. Was so busy cooking yesterday...got a guest for iftar..alhamdulillah, seronoknya dapat memberi makanan pada yang berpuasa and yang menyambut ulangtahunnya. Happy Birthday, dearest.

Lets see what to berbuka today...certain '*teringins' kena beli at bazaar ramadhan

Berbuka
*Murtabak singapura
Pecal
*Mee rebus
Bubur pulut hitam (yg dimasak tapi tak habis semalam)
Buah mangga

Sahur
Nasi putih
Kari daging
Sambal ikan bilis dan petai
Kobis goreng

Selamat berbuka!