Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah, bulan mulia sudah tiba...Ramadhan.

What is Ramadhan to my family?
Puasa - not having breakfast, lunch and tea.
Sahur - 4.45am, i wake up to cook and the rest being woken up to eat.
Terawih - a undescribable feeling, every rakaat sends different shivers to my body and soul, subhanallah
Berbuka - Not rice..i.e not white rice and lauk.

What is different this year? Its berpuasa, but just the two of us. Nadeem is fasting away in madrasah. couldnt sleep for the last few nights. Wondering how nadeem is doing. Will he wake up for sahur, will friends be gentle waking him up. If he's tired while fasting, can he take a nap, rest awhile. Berbuka- oh dear, since he was 6, he gets to break fast with his favourite food...oh my aching heart. After the long hard fasting day, i cant give him what he likes.

But this is what my husband said "Papa rasa gembira..dia berpuasa bersama fisabilillah. Di bawah jagaan para ustaz al-tahfiz. semoga dia terpelihara dari hasutan dan nafsu dan diberkati sepanjang ramadhan, semoga imannya bertambah kuat..berbuka dan bersahur hanyalah sebahagian drpd ibadah puasa...'

So, this year.. berpuasa without my parents and without my son...alhamdulillah this is my test.