What's on?

What's on in my life?
Today.... a quite Sunday. Puzi's away on a course. Nadeem's lazing infront of the telly. Its a gloomy cloudy day.

Had my mug of nescafe and french toast for breakfast. We usually eat out on Sundays but Puzi's not around, it does not make sense to drive out just for food. So, made pepperoni pizza for Nadeem and a cheese & tomato for me. Nice..

Wish I can get tickets for Michael Jacksons memorial but its only a 0.4% chance. Still not sure is he really dead? From the rumors and latest news dug up by CNN, BBC, ABC, Eonline..theres so many questions, mysteries but all agree he has a debt amounting 300mil. Just this past week, his albums, videos have sold to a staggering sum..Could all this death thing just a hoax? Will he actually appear, just like on the Thriller album, zombie-like, to say 'hey, I'm still here..I love you'. I askd myself, what would I feel? Happy, MJ is alive. Angry, being cheated, wasted my time, tears, mourning. or just sad, he is a real, wacko, sick..Well, I'm sure he's really dead. My heart goes out to his family.
It's never easy when someone close to you pass away so sudden. My mum passed away after days in the hospital suffering from a third cancer. We were kind of prepared ourselves for the bad news...but a year later my father went away so quitely in his sleep. Why didnt I hug him just a bit tighter the night before. Why didnt I tell him that I love him so much. Why didnt ...there's too many why didnts, could haves, should haves....Its been 5 years since my mums gone and 4 years since my father passed away. I still missed them so much. Sometimes I want, I need to talk to someone about them, to remember them, their voices, their smiles, their laughter, their touches...theres this painful hollow feeling inside me. I used to dream about them a lot but not any more. Why?...